For those that know me, know that I am very introverted. For those that don’t, I’ll refer you to the title of this blog.
I’ve always been shy and quiet. It never used to really bother me. Though so many times I would have so much to say, yet when I would be with a group of people I clam up and would be unable to get the freaking words out of my mouth. Or I would worry that I may say the wrong thing, and be judged in some manner.
Which I know is quite silly because knowing most of the people in my social circles now, I know there isn’t much I could say that would even surprise them.
A friend of mine recently noted that I had been going out to more events and they were glad I was doing so. They asked why, simply because they know its never really been a thing for me to go to so many socials. I replied that I am working on my social anxiety and the way for me to really conquer it is to force myself to go to more events and parties.
Since I started going to more events, I will say my anxiety has gotten a little better, its not great- there are times I don’t want to get out of the car and would rather go home and watch Housewives of Beverly Hills or Vanderpump Rules with my dog.
But we all need social interaction, to meet new people, and have new experiences. Otherwise we don’t grow or learn anything from other people. So even if I am having anxiety about going to an event, I try to power through, because I know at the end of the evening I will have had a great time and glad that I went.
This weekend for example, I have a few parties that I will be attending. One is a big event that I haven’t gone to in a long time. I know a lot of people that will be going, and it does ease my anxiety a little bit. There will also be a majority of people that I don’t know and usually that makes me a little uncomfortable. But as I said, I am facing my social anxiety head on and the way for me to do that is to just put myself in the situations that may make me a little uncomfortable.
So here’s the the weekend!
I look forward to sharing Sunday night how things went! Wish me luck!