#polyproblems

I just want to feel like I matter to my partner, there are days I feel like I don’t   Yes I’m his secondary, but still.  There is still equality in relationships even if you practice heirarchy poly.

I have been with my partner now for 8 months.

Four months ago I ended my relationship with my long term partner of 5 years, so now I just have my one, who I would say is now my primary partner.

It can be hard when someone is your primary but you aren’t theirs.  Though I accepted it, sometimes it is really hard.  There are times I have really needed him, but he is not there, or can’t be there because his partner and the pod he is a part of comes first.

Sometimes I wonder if I will end up all alone.  I don’t have anyone that puts me first.  Its just me, myself and I.